close for comfort

exams are here :? this time round i am really afraid ya' know ? i mean i haven been paying attention in class for the past 9 weeks or so .. okay ah not that bad i think the last week i got pay ABIT ahh but still .... i've been kinda stress and thus i stop talking and entertaining some of my friends, causing the friendship all not to grow and stuff ahh ... like A8 like that lurhhh .. everyone was bonding with each other during school days except me :/ i kept alot of things to myself then see now .. then this time round exam time i got no one to study with somemre .. before year 3, it was usually with kimmura and stuff then after tat we different class .. now lehhhh my classmates, those that i hang out with now all studying tgt in groups and stuff which i cannot .. then now must study alone all .. then when i stuck with questions, i don't dare ask my friends all also cause i dun want disturb them all :(

i miss how i used to be, so carefree so many friends :( now so much different .. i think this is how a guy gets when his thinking starts to get matured (?) i rmb how i used to drink my sorrows out whenever i feel down.. now different, i do more reps in gym when i'm feeling down which makes me feel awesome after that but no one knows how i feel deep down inside