wants

sweat, aches and pain thats what i want in life. i want to lift weights i want to train and compete for competitions . what about you?

rage

Who doesn't have them ? I'll be lying if i say i don't have them. In fact, i am filled with rage, anger and much more. I love all those rage, i love all those hating. The more i have the merrier i become cause it means i would be lifting heavier weights, doing the extra few miles just because of those hating, those betray. I don't complain about how stuff haven been good to me. I don't really care much about having a girlfriend either cause all these only bring a person down. All those emotional are useless. Sometimes i hate myself for even feeling sorry for another human being.

end of NYP

Its close to the end of my nyp period and its about time i start getting to know new friends. I told myself to change when i was entering poly to be a better person. Not to joke so much and stuff but i failed during the orientation. I show the weak side of me in the orientation during my year 1 period. I knew i gotta change but i don't know when . I want to be someone that people talk serious things to and not someone that people enjoys to be around. I know its sounds kinda childish and silly but i don't want to be the joker kinda guy. I guess i did it during the ending of my schooling period when i start getting serious with gym. That is when people noticed a changed in me. I guess people would say i'm not being myself but well who doesn't wear a mask in this real world right ?