close for comfort

exams are here :? this time round i am really afraid ya' know ? i mean i haven been paying attention in class for the past 9 weeks or so .. okay ah not that bad i think the last week i got pay ABIT ahh but still .... i've been kinda stress and thus i stop talking and entertaining some of my friends, causing the friendship all not to grow and stuff ahh ... like A8 like that lurhhh .. everyone was bonding with each other during school days except me :/ i kept alot of things to myself then see now .. then this time round exam time i got no one to study with somemre .. before year 3, it was usually with kimmura and stuff then after tat we different class .. now lehhhh my classmates, those that i hang out with now all studying tgt in groups and stuff which i cannot .. then now must study alone all .. then when i stuck with questions, i don't dare ask my friends all also cause i dun want disturb them all :(

i miss how i used to be, so carefree so many friends :( now so much different .. i think this is how a guy gets when his thinking starts to get matured (?) i rmb how i used to drink my sorrows out whenever i feel down.. now different, i do more reps in gym when i'm feeling down which makes me feel awesome after that but no one knows how i feel deep down inside

out.

hehehehhees this month and next month got soooo many cakes to eat :P teeeeheeeeee :) holidays are here nao .. gotta start gyming and studying liaozxczxczxc :( ehhhhh wl ehhhh i think ^^ still cute siaaaaaa HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS nvm fk u royce study first :) teeeheeee PO !

jealousy

hellllo exams are coming and i gotta study reallly hard during the 2 weeks break. I am damnzxczxc stress in school because i feel that i'm like the weakest link in there. Every fucker has a really good GPA in there except me ... nabeiiii why did i even choose this fucking spec as one of my choice ... but welll since i am in it might as well make the best out of it right ? :)

Truth ? i am fucking jealous .. really damn jealous of people that can talk to girls ... I am super shy when it comes to taking to girls ... like really ... i fucking jealous of guys that have the guts to even talk to a girl .. idk why siaaaa wl ehhhh i dun dare talk to girls one lehhh... so to all mother fuckers out there that have the guts to talk to girls .. FUCK YOU :D

weakest link

Exams are closing by. I'm feeling fucking stress.

changed.

What happened. What changed both of us. We promised to be good friends be it thick or thin, but look at what's happening now. Was it because of me ? Was it me that changed? Don't you miss the past, when we could tell each other secrets, laughed together and even making fun of each other? Look at us now. Even friends of us asked me what happened. It no longer feels the same. All i wished now is just to hug you and hope that everything goes back to what it was before. But well i'm not the kinda guy that get emotional with stuff like that i guess.

i miss you. i really really do. i know you've heard me saying this a thousand times to you before but this time i really mean it.

study frenzy

things has been getting kinda crazy in school. 0908 don't seems to be as close as how i thought it would be. I'm starting to get worried about my studies and my future. Maybe it was you who had me all figured out. Maybe i just need someone. Someone to talk to , someone who knows what i've gone through. Someone actually cares. I guess thats what a joker like me can't have. A friend that actually see through his jokes, someone that actually understands. Since i grew up like that, i guess i just gotta hang on to all that i've got and well live my life. Sometimes just sometimes i wished i could have gone back in time, change my attitude in life, maybe just maybe by doing that, i would actually find someone that understands.